Friendship isn't defined by how many times you talk on the phone, or how many hours you hang out together. It doesn't matter how many shared memories or inside jokes you have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with you every weekend, or tell you every little detail about their life. A best friend is a matter of opinion; it is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things or the little things. It is the person you know you can count on when you are at your absolute worst. It is the person who saves you when you didn't even notice you needed saving. It is the person that tells you the truth when you need to hear it - and says it in love. A best friend is someone who knows and accepts you for who you are, while encouraging you to become better.
That being said....I miss my best friends more than words can convey. I'm okay with not talking to them every single day, but can friendship survive on a complete lack of conversation? I'm having a hard time adjusting to the fact that our lives are going in completely separate directions. They're making new friends and plans for the future - ones that don't include me. In theory, best friends can come back at any time and pick up conversations where they left off. I can go to Europe, they can leave for college, or get married and move across the country. But eventually, everything will be normal again, right? In theory, we can just start again where we left off, and still be as close as ever.
But I'm scared that's not going to happen.
And I'm scared of being replaced.
And I feel like I'm losing some of you.
I'm trying not to clutch the past so tightly to my chest that it leaves my arms too full to embrace the present. I swear I'm trying to make the most of it, but summer really sucks without you.
Awww megs...gosh...I know that I miss my best friend too. It's such a hard thing to deal with. Yes...a best friend is definitely someone you can depend on but when that person isn't available to talk at all...that must be really hard. Europe is gonna be a struggle for many of us for such reasons and I know that I want to make sure that contact is kept because I too fear that things won't return back to normal. People move on with their lives and for one to say to the other...wait for me...don't live your life...it's unfair to them. I hope things stay fresh and good as they were or are at their highest points because once you've experienced that, there's no goin back.
ReplyDeleteOnce you've had a taste of perfection, second best sucks...-Katy Perry